Beeing sick sucks

Beeing sick sucks so much. And I just hate colds they makes me feel worse.

Anyhow today I wanna complain a bit why? 'Cous I'm anoyed at people that think that everyone that cuts, selfharm and wants to comit suicide are bad people. Why can't they just see that these peoples just need some help? Or maybe they just need someone to talk to what do you know? I can tell you that i know that it is in fact like that. I've been really down but most of my friends didn't notice it becouse they didn't look close enught. Cutting,selfharming and suicideis isually a big part of a persons day. It was a big part of my day once but now I feel better 'couse i do have a few friends that i do know care alot that would miss me.

Anyway to day was really boring i woke up cous the phone was rining it was the boss (i only work sometimes cous I'm unemplyed and when i do work is it cous someone calls in sick) that wanted me to work tomorrow, I said yes first but then later when I woke up again i felt that i couldn't cous i had a bad cold and fever. So today was spent infront of the computer and the telly. I've been talking to matt most of the time. The fever isn't that high at the moment but i still feel sick tho.

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The sunrise is the begining of a new day much like spring is a promiss of new fresh life. That the butterflies are flying from flower to flower.
The sunset is the end of the day and a promiss that a new say soon will arive for you to love, but it's also a promiss on an ending of a period or time. The winter is here, it's cold ya know. I know that my heart will allways be warn thanx to you. Sunrise or sunset doesn't matter 'cous I know that you'll be right next to me no matter what to keep me safe and warm.

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Matt ai wo shiteiru

Thoughts

I might look a bit slow.
But even I know
that everyone want the answers
of the ones that is bright.
I hide my brightness from you,
I don't want to be the one,
that eveyone gets the answer from.
My mind is set so the brightbness wont shine
becous you can answer yourself.

I know that i'm clever but i don't want to show it why? Becouse everyone just expect big sthings of you if you so show it, and i don't wnat everyone to expect big things from me, I mean i just wannt to be abel to goof around and have fun like everyone else. If you want answers then answer them yourself.

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Nande

Ok so this is my first blog and my first blong entry. If you got a problem with me writing in english then you don't have to continue read my entries cous they'll continue to be written in english. Anyway, I didn't do too much today cous I got a cold witch sucks. My mom got into a Christmas mood so we did some decorations in the house. I became in a reall x-mas mood and started to play some x-mas songs. Matt started to talk about shintoism so i looked it up on wikipedia and read everything that it had to say bout it. Then me and Matt started to talk about cat and dog breeds and what kind of dogs and cats we would like to have. I'm not going to complain or anything right now cous it's my first day and first entry, I'm exited how everything will turn out when I've started to blog and what you all will say.

Roses are red,violets are blue oh matt i love you so.

Visit Matt's blog on http://mattachublog.blogspot.com/

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